GOOD RIDDANCE. That's all I gotta say. Not that I haven't had my fair share of good times this year, but I have those every year. But I'm pretty sure I'm ready for this year of FAIL to be over. Like seriously.

Honestly though? I haven't felt like I've accomplished much of anything this year... Took too long to get a job, and even after I get one, it's not like that's going to do much for me except help with personal expenses and saving for... for what?

Even when I try to look at the USELESS accomplishments, I still haven't done much. Haven't really beaten any games... haven't really drawn or completed much artwork... WHERE HAS MY TIME GONE D; *DRAMATIC FALL TO THE FLOOR* _{Oh wait... I remember... *glares somewhere*}

- ANYWAY. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO THE REST. Honestly I'm not gonna be relaxing and celebrating. Missing work to go to a convention in ... Austin, TX? Like, Tomorrow (maybe). Hm. I haven't really prepared at all so I'll probably be running around my house with my head cut off trying to do laundry, get shit together, _{groom the brow forest on my forehead...} YA KNOW? Important SHINS. Probably wouldn't be worried about it if I didn't have to go to work in... like 40 mins.
But I probably will help myself to Welch's sparkling juice (that stuff that comes in wine bottle looking stuff? SO DELICIOUS) -->[link]

Anyways. Again. ... as far as resolutions. I hope i can get enough willpower to seriously look into a college of some sort. Honestly the idea scares me. I'd rather have money than education...(LOL) and the thought that I might be in debt over the course of the rest of my life frightens me. Not only that... the fear of paying this and failing my courses... and then not only that... but not getting a job for what I studied for... and then not only that... but somehow breaking away from the small world that I know... _{and not only that... *trails off*}

I'd like to be more committed to my artwork too... and actually IMPROVE. I looked back at my christmas stuff from last year, and it depressed me, cause I saw no change in my drawings. I see all of these deviations of those time calendars... their drawings over the course of this year, and I realized... I hadn't even drawn something put on there every month. THAT'S HOW BAD ITS GOTTEN. I used to draw multiple times everyday... EVERY. DAY. And now... :c baw.

~ ~ ~Ah well. Here's hope to a better year in 2010! (lol gonna take sooo long to get used to that!) I hope everyone has a wonderful New Year's! ^^

Stolen from NeodeadlyraveR *3*

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say To People (and have them actually listen? Yeah!):

1. Omfg stfu.
2. You can be more open with me.
3. Stop staring already!
4. If you come up to me one more time, I swear I will stab your eyes out, you creeper!
5. Wish we were closer, like in the past.
6. OMFG MARRY ME YOU SEXY BEAST.
7. You really disappointed me. But, maybe it's my fault for expecting something.
8. Why don't you just admit it?
9. It's hard for me to be angry at you, but I feel like I should be.
10. Wish I could care more---but... B|


Nine Things About Myself :

1. I bite my nails... and the skin on my fingers off.
2. I think most people get disappointed in my personality the more they know me.
3. Text/IMing over talking ANY day.
4. Bottled water > tap water (imo LOL)
5. Really squeamish/terrified around needles -or- wasps/bees/horse flies etc
6. Let's just say I'd fail as a housewife (I.E: Doesn't know how/like to cook, clean, shop, etc)
7. So lazy. No willpower. Hate it, but still too lazy/not enough willpower to change it.
8. I dislike gum or anything minty. I can't brush my teeth without gagging at least once through it. I know. Sad.
9. OCD about weird things. Like the fact this is 'NINE things about myself'. Why couldn't they just make it ten? S'annoying in a strange way. Not enough to BOTHER me TRULY, but just... like. Why?


Eight Ways To Win My Heart :

1. Don't lie.
2. Don't promise me/tell me something and not follow through with it.
3. At least attempt to try out the things I enjoy.
4. Have a sense of humor
5. Be there for me just once when I really need you.
6. Don't humor me just to not hurt my feelings. Srsly. I'm a big girl. It hurts more when I find you out ; p
7. Don't dish out what you can't take in return
8. Listen. Because I will listen to you.


Seven Things That Cross My Mind A Lot (Recently...?) :

1) Work... geh.
2) My friend's and my OC's... story stuff, etc.
3) What *insert name here* is up to lately.
4) LOTS OF ANGSTY SHINS THAT WOULD TAKE UP MORE THAN SEVEN THINGS. 8D
5) Online game I'm playing at the moment. (I know... wtf is there to think about? But I do.)
6) Picture ideas I don't have the skill for.
7) Killing customers at walmart ( 8D eheheheh... heh.)


Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep :

1) Wash up if I feel like it; get into big shirt and big pants.
2) Think about how crappy work is gonna be the next day.
3) Think of story stuff to help distract myself.
4) Realize distracting myself is distracting myself from sleep.
5) Try to clear mind.
6) Trying to clear mind takes a lot of time... taking a benedril is a possibility here.



Five Places I Want To Visit :

1) Japan (DERP DEE DUR. WEREN'T EXPECTING THAT ONE I BET.)
2) UK (If only to hear those accents... omg...)
3) Italy (I bet the architecture and museums in this place or awesome *3*)
4) Canada (OHhhh CAAAAANAHdaaaaaaaaaaaah... that's all I know.)
5) The places my online friends live~ ~ ~



Four Things I'm Wearing Right Now :

1) Jacket
2) Socks
3) Glasses
4) Necklace my sister gave me |D



Three Bands That I Listen To Often (Currently?):

1) Lights
2) Celtic Women (ILU CHLOE--- <333333333333)
3) Darren Styles



Two Things I Want To Do Before I Die :

1) Make a video game or a manga~~~ ;3;
2) Better myself, as a person :'D


One Confession :
I... don't think I have the ability to LOVE someone D: Love-like-caring-for-immensely, I do, yes. Love-like... wannadateyou-wanna***upwith-wannamarry, I do not, no. _{Even horoscope shit says virgos are least likely to marry...}
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I taaaag... EVERRRRRRRRRRYOOOOOOOOOOONE 8DDD

I thought we should do something everyone can take a part in for me to read when I return from my Dad's!


~* List at least one thing you are thankful for! Then, underneath, tell me what your plans are for today /o/ or what you have already done today \o\

Yes, I'd like to hear, even if you have nothing to say but complain about how shitty your day was. But even if you have/had a bad day, there still must be something, no matter how small, you are thankful for, right? :3 *~

Even though I don't know many of you. I am thankful for your presence! Because encouragement is a thing I don't get much in my family, and something I probably take for granted when I receive it from my friends or even strangers. So thank you!
That said, I am thankful for those who put up with me, know me, and still put up with me. I am thankful for my dog, Yoshi, who sometimes is the only one to comfort me when I'm having an emotional night. I am thankful for the few family members that still try, in their own subtle way, to be there for me, even if it's not all the time. I am thankful for being, overall, 'healthy' (lol for the most part).

Today, I'm going to go eat with my dad, I'm glad it worked out since I was afraid I wouldn't get to see him with my weird and hectic work schedule for Black Friday (now I know why its BLACK.) I haven't seen him since early August, so I was relieved. I will be taken by my Grandma (lol awkward car ride possibly) and eat there for lunch, then come home and mingle with my mother and a few of her friends. Should be good, if only, because I'll eat lots of fooood~ ;D

Hope everyone enjoys their day!

Life

- Well, work is gonna suck pretty soon, I can tell. We've already had some little delinquents stealing, some woman trying to buy stuff with fake one-hundred dollar bills, etc. And it's not even as close to Christmas as it is Thanksgiving yet ;;. People are scary... I dun wanna get trampled or killed.
- Yoshi (my dog) has been having trouble eating so today I'm taking him to the vet for a check up /o/ and hopefully to get those god-awful long nails clipped.
- My throat hurts right now, and if I get sick, I swear... *empty threat*
- Other than that, not much, been angsty and more angst, but I blame the womanly gift from hell that comes around each month.

Drawing

- I actually feel artsy! I haven't really been doing much to upload, but I've been drawing without wanting to slit my throat so that's something. Been doing a lot of planning with my friend, Lurulei, about character/story stuff, which is fun.
- LOTS of TM (tinierme) fanart... they are just so damn cute omg. Ok, not lots, but, 'lots' since... er, yeah, I usually don't draw anything worth uploading cept maybe once every two months; if even that.

Gaming

- Unless TM counts as a game... not much. Usually when I'm over at Lurulei's I'm watching HER play. Ico, Shadow of the Colossus, and now Muramasa: The Demon Blade. We are planning to do our "SHITTY/TEDIOUS GAME HOWEVER MUST BEAT" marathon though... which so far consists of Chocobo's Dungeon 2, Galerians Ash, and Ephemeral Fantasia. YEAH! LET'S DO IT!

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Random: I hope I can get myself a cellphone today... that or a PS3. I'M READY.

It would have been... happy that is, until I remember I have to go to work in 40 minutes. ADFJKJKF WAI WALMART. WAI WOULD YOU MAKEZ ME WORK ON HALLOWEEN FOR 9 HOURS! There's no need for that, is there? Really? Really? Srsly? Yeah. Dai. Not only that, I was hugely disappointed from yesterday.

See, I already had it in my head I was going to miss halloween completely given my schedule... no dressing up, no going around and getting candy despite being probably-too-old. But no, Tuesday, an employee on break asked me what I was going to be for Halloween. With a deadpan face, I replied "A cashier." and then he's like "well right, but, you get to dress up" suddenly, refueled I was like "REALLY?!! WE GET TO DO SOMETHING FUN HERE??!" And I was really excited for once. Sure i'd have to work, but it'd be neat to dress up and stuff.

But no. Just today, I was informed that was taken away from us. No costumes today, and in fact, starting now (after 10 years) everything will be strict dress code. Meaning, we don't even get to wear jeans every friday like we have gotten too. Honestly, i forget to wear jeans so it doesn't really affect me, but ITS THE PRINCIPLE OF THE THING. KLJKLFJKLF ;~; I wanted to dress up...

Anyways. Happy Halloween to the rest of you. Hope you have fun, dun do anything stupid and all of that.

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Also: WHO THE EFF WOULD KEEP IT AT 65 DEGREES IN THIS HOUSE. AKLJDFJKLFJK *finding just about anything to complain about--ignore.*